I have made a decision about my life: I want to go back to graduate school. I was up late last night, pacing, trying to decide whether I wanted to attempt to go back to work in the legal field as a paralegal, or become a counselor/therapist. I can get the Department of Vocational Rehabilitation, the Washington state jobs agency, to pay for a state (public) graduate school. It can't be a private school, of which there are many in Seattle, and it will be a search finding the right program, based in Western Washington (Bellingham), Eastern Washington (Cheney, Washington), or Central Washington (I am not where which city that is based in).

I decided against being a paralegal, although the money is damned good and no need for credentials or schooling, anymore than the experience that I already have the old law firm, but I cannot stand game players, liars and manipulators, and lawyers by defintion are all three. I'd kill the next SOB who tried to play me for a fool or a bimbo, I swear to God, so better to stay away from law.

I've been told that those schools have online/outreach programs where I can do my coursework either online or in classrooms in Seattle, and never have to travel to the home school. I hope that's true, because it would be a hike to get Bellingham or Cheney from Seattle, too many miles. Bellingham is almost to the Canadian border, I spent a weekend in Bellingham once, but that's a long story. I was trying to get to Canada, but the Canadians turned me back at the border for getting belligerent with the customs official for being rude. I ddidn't like her tone and she didn't like mine, so I ended up getting off the bus, before they could haul me in to one of their little rooms for questioning and started walking back to Bellingham, a Statie picked me up and gave me a ride (nice guy).

I stayed the weekend in a Bed & Breakfast.That's all I know of Bellingham, except that with the Vietnam war, some draft resistors ended up there, but no one asks those kinds of questions.

Anyway, back to the school question. I am looking up programs today online, and calling Tracy Wilson, the DVR counselor, who closed my file last March, but told me to reapply when my brain, memory and concentration were more functional, up to the tasks of graduate school, which will be a challenge.

Mania and depression take their toll on my nerves, my ability to be functional, right now after December, I am very fragile, not able to coope with much stress, and not able to focus or read for long periods of time, hopefully that will change by September. I will hope and pray for that.